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aivix
20 July 2017 @ 06:32 pm
I've come to one conclusion in my life over music: it is powerful. It brings back memories that are painful and wonderful, it provides a soundtrack to my days... it gives me inspiration when I write. And I feel many people feel the same, cherishing bands and songs that remain special to them.

So I hope that it's not weird when I say that I am devastated by Chester Bennington's death. Linkin Park is a standby in my life, the only band that I adore every track on their albums and something I listen to in good times and bad. Somewhere I Belong is burned in my memory from my senior year of undergrad; What I've Done gets played every time I have a terrible day at work. I can belt out Nobody's Listening and Faint without thinking, and I still know the track listings of Hybrid Theory, Reanimation, and Meteora.

I feel strange as I admit I'm feel sadness over the passing of someone I didn't know or have any relation to, but I realize I do feel loss. Perhaps because he, in a way, was there with the music that (oddly, I know) gave me comfort when I was at the height of my ED, in the last terrible year of High School, and when my brother died and I was grieving him. I had just talked about going to an LP concert, too, looking forward to potentially taking a day off in August to see the band perform in NYC.

In the very least, I hope his family and his friends will find some level of comfort in knowing the fans grieve him too. And tomorrow I'll make a donation to the Suicide Prevention Lifeline and to TWLOHA.

Rest well, Chester. May you have found peace at last.
Tags:
 
 
: sad
: "Powerless", Linkin Park
 
 
aivix
04 June 2017 @ 05:32 pm
Done over the last few days:

1. Stargate SG-1, Sam Carter/Jack O'Neill, Twenty Percent More Awesome
Stargate Multiverse, Sam Carter/Jack O'Neill + The Boys. Deaged AU.

2. seaQuest DSV, ensemble, trapped on land during a violent storm
Stargate: Atlantis/seaQuest DSV, Ensemble.

3. Stargate Multiverse Astronaut AU, Rodney McKay/John Sheppard, when your sick boyfriend is 250 miles away...straight up in space
Stargate Multiverse, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay. NASA AU.

4. Any Sci-fi fandom, Any, God is an Astronaut
Stargate Multiverse, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay. NASA AU.

Nothing too long, just easing back in. :)
 
 
: happy
: 'Allo 'Allo
 
 
aivix
20 May 2017 @ 08:00 pm
After taking the intervening time between semesters for myself, I have returned to LJ/DW and will hopefully get my butt back to writing in the next few days.

What did I do in that interim period? I went to the March for Science in NYC on a rather drizzly day and participated in a color run with my friend K; I bought a ridiculously overpriced hair dryer and dyed my hair a lovely red-violet color that my boss has yet to comment on (*snerk*). I don't know if I'll be keeping this color or going for a deeper purple, but I'm enjoying it.

I went to free comic book day up in Massachusetts with my close friend B, where several young men stared at us wide-eyed because girls were in a comic book store which entertained us to no end. I learned that day that there are, in fact, Batman Beyond comics and got some level of judgement from the guys who run the shop for purchasing 2 of the Stargate: Atlantis comics from the Kickstarter campaign. I almost left with a Hawkeye Hot Toy. Instead, I saved the money and have since started collecting some of the Aquaman merch that I find on clearance. I now have a cute little Aquaman Dorbz to sit with my Funko POP! Maui and a plush Aquaman that I will likely have to constantly steal back from the cats!

There was a trip to Florida with the niece & nephew. For the record, after 30 years, I should know better than to go into EPCOT without a water bottle: I dehydrated, overheated, and threw up on a Cast Member. The sunburn I got that day could have guided in planes and took a week to calm down enough I could throw my purse strap on it. Upside, I got to ride the new Frozen ride in Disney and can legitimately say I hate that they replaced Maelstrom with it.

My new semester starts Monday, and I'll be re-taking the class that the video didn't pass as well as emergency procedures. If I can pass it this time, I'll be on track to graduate after the fall semester. I'm crossing my fingers that I can start videotaping this week after work and have it submitted well before the due date. If I can do that, it'll give me time to correct any videos that she finds fault with.

I'm going to try to catch up on the flist, but how have you all been? :)
 
 
: accomplished
 
 
aivix
22 April 2017 @ 09:30 am
I have a double sided sign, a warm sweater, and my duck boots. Let's get scientific. ❤️
 
 
: excited
 
 
aivix
31 March 2017 @ 05:58 pm
The last month... wow. In the last four weeks:

1. I found out I failed a video for one of my classes and had to withdraw or take an F. I withdrew to save from tanking my GPA.

Doing a distance program (don't know if I've mentioned that in the past), I have to videotape myself doing specific AVMA indicated tasks to prove I can do them. The major problem being... we don't do several of these tasks at my facility, like, oh, incubating agar plates or cross-matching blood. The first time I did most of them was FOR the video which is definitely not the best. I still worked my ass off for it, getting sick halfway through the tasks and had to wear a mask to avoid vomiting when working with cat poop. I am not looking forward to doing them all again this summer, but at least I got some practice at it and some direction from the professor.

2. I worked my ass off on a major project plus video for Radiology and this one, I passed. I got an 85% and wish I'd gotten better, but I know part of my problem is collimating. I also was working with cats and for those who have not had a cat or do not know what cats are like, my cats who I have had since they were 4 week old kittens, who will let me handpill them--I can stick my fingers in their throats if I have to--and do things like give them injections and pretty much string them up by the toes, were fighting me tooth, claw, and scream to not be put on their side for a MINUTE. Seriously, I might have to upload the video of Ianto screaming like I was killing him.

So, 85%, but I accept my faults and I really can't get too upset because I passed. (Okay, I can because I am kind of Type A when it comes to my schoolwork.)

3. And now I'm sick again. After 2 visits to Urgent Care, Wednesday & this morning, I finally feeling better. I was told at the first visit that it was just an upper respiratory, even though I thought I had bronchitis; he gave me some prescription cough suppressant pills and told me to rest and keep up on fluids. I added in lysine, set up my humidifier, and tried to get more sleep. I got worse instead and nearly went to the ER last night, so today went back.

I have bronchitis, made worse by an asthma attack I didn't realize I was having, and now my ears are in on the game. I walked into the exam room with an SPO2 of 92% and they immediately gave me a nebulizer treatment followed by chest x-rays, a steroid shot, and then called in prescriptions for more steroids and antibiotics. I bought a second humidifier, this one a warm mist, and around 5:30 tonight after my 2nd shower today, I actually feel human.

Now that I can sit up and not want to pass out because I can't oxygenate, I'm holding off on studying for finals until Sunday and playing video games and writing instead. I've got 11 prompts open in tabs and I'd like to fill at least three or four tomorrow. I did start on one kink prompt I've been percolating over, so that might be posted in a little while.

Tonight, however, I'm watching some old MasterChef episodes and then playing a few more levels of Lego Marvel Superheroes or starting Mass Effect Andromeda.
 
 
: sick
: MasterChef s3e1
 
 
 
aivix
27 February 2017 @ 05:55 am
The semester started in January and I have to admit, this time around, I am a horrible procrastinator. Normally I work ahead, so that I don't have to panic over tests or assignments, but I think because the video for Clin Path is wiping the floor with me, my anxiety has transmuted into apathy. I'm still chugging along, thankfully, but this is why I've been MIA from DW/LJ for the last few weeks.

I am, however, halfway done with my video and I'm actually doing B-level work in A&P (which I'll take despite wanting an A), so I can finally divert my attention from "WHAT THE HELL IS THAT CELL?" to fandom again. I should probably focus on my apartment some, but, well...

Unfortunately, I won't be making the Romancing McShep deadline. I do plan to hold onto the prompts and continue working on the fills until I can eventually post them to AO3, but with tomorrow being the final posting day, I won't make it. But I do have fills of the comment_fic kind:

Deaged AU (Jack/Sam, The boys)
Any, Any, Magic Dance (David Bowie)
Author's Choice, any ensemble, arguing over who gets to pick the film for group movie night
Stargate Atlantis, Rodney McKay, despite his preference for airline food and MREs, he's actually quite proficient in the kitchen

NASA AU (John/Rodney)
Stargate Atlantis, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay, Rodney taking care of sick John

Before I Sleep AU (Past John/Rodney, John & Rodney)
Stargate Multiverse, Any,

The distance is what’s killing me
Time and space have become the enemy

(Hot Chelle Rae)


Lemony AU (John/Rodney)
Stargate Atlantis, Sheppard/McKay, kitchen staff didn't notify of lemon in the food

Post-Series (John/Rodney)
Stargate Atlantis, John Sheppard/Rodney McKay,

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

(Snow Patrol)


MCU (Steve/Bucky)
Marvel Cinematic Universe, Bucky Barnes/Steve Rogers, You Are My Once In A Lifetime

Skyfall (James Bond/Q)
Any, Any m/m, "And... and much as it grieves me to say it, it... it might be that the people I love is, in fact... you."
 
 
: awake
: The Simpsons
 
 
aivix
Title: All That We Lost (We'll Find)
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Rating: Teen
Pairing(s): None stated, but implied polyamory.
Summary: Leave no man behind was forgotten by the IOA.
Tags: s2e05 "Condemned" AU.

All That We Lost (We'll Find)Collapse )
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: tired
: Netflix documentaries
 
 
aivix
12 February 2017 @ 09:54 am
Many happy birthday wishes to nagi_schwarz. Thank you for the amazing fic you write and I hope you have a wonderful day. <3
Tags:
 
 
: awake
: The Hunt with John Walsh
 
 
aivix
29 January 2017 @ 03:55 pm
I've been pretty much MIA the last week and it's mainly due to the insanity currently gripping my country. My twitter is all politics all the time (sorry to anyone looking for fandom stuff) and my FB is basically a battleground between my pro-Trump Uncle and I. I've been unable to take my attention from either one of those to focus on anything fandom-related and I apologize since it means I immediately fail in some of my resolutions to write more.

Apparently, being enraged and terrified by what's happening lends itself to writer's block.

I've sending money left and right to places like Planned Parenthood and the ACLU. Mom and I have been watching livestreams of the protests in Orlando and Boston while making our signs for NYC and talking about how the country is on figurative fire, what this means for the future, and the fact that after a lifetime of idolizing MLK Jr, FDR, TR, Washington, and Jefferson, I'm not going to flee for Canada (or Scotland as my friend A demands) but I'm going to stand and fight. My father, of course, wanted me to understand that things are going to get worse before they get better--he watched it during the 60s & 70s re: civil rights & Vietnam--and I told him that I expect it because this is only the first week: These cowards are only getting started.

That said, I'm not sure what's going to happen in the coming weeks. I may be on more as I need breaks from reality, I may be on less as I get my ass to more marches, I may be on the exact same amount. Hopefully in the very least, since I always have homework to do, I'll be able to get some fills/writing done in between moments of cursing at my computer because I've been stumped by yet another anatomy & physiology question.
 
 
: shocked
 
 
aivix
22 January 2017 @ 07:45 pm
Political related stuff.Collapse )

And then there's this app I found.Collapse )

I did 2 fills today on comment_fic. One HP (Harry/Hermione/Draco), one SG Multiverse (Deaged AU). I've got a few more prompts I'd like to get something written for this week, plus some additional work on the 007 AU. I still need to look at the romancingmcshep prompts for something additional to work on (also back up in case the AU does to me what Catalyst did to me last year and turns into a monster that I barely finished on time).

I've slowed down posting prompts a bit, which I blame on how tired I was last week from work. I intend to get back in the habit this week since things look like they'll be a bit better: one of our vets is on a month-long vacation to Australia & New Zealand and there's only so much covering the other two vets can do, so like as not, we'll have the opportunity to take days off/leave early. It'll give me time for the comm and for homework which I definitely will need this semester.

Follow up on cats: strawberry mint tea when sapped out of a rug onto a towel with white stripes looks like cat pee and smells just enough like it to question your sanity. Both of my terrors (boy & girl) are fine, thankfully, despite having a mama who can be tricked by tea.
 
 
: calm
: Babies Behind Bars